It’s a day late, but on this day when America gets to display its greatest greed, I thought that I would do my yearly tradition of saying the things that I’m thankful for. This year has gone by unimaginably quickly. If you would have told me the things that I would go through this year at the beginning, I’d have said you were crazy. But sure enough, here I am, watching one of my favorite films on blu-ray – Blade Runner. I forgot how amazing the cinematography was. As I watch the film, my mind drifts to some of my experiences, and the parts of my life that have gotten me here. With all that said, here are the things that I am thankful for this year.
First, it’s having a job that can pay for my continuing growth in education. I’m looking to leave the frigid icebox that I find myself trapped in. After my last go-around in college, I no longer qualify for student loans. As such, I have to pay for this stuff out of pocket. College tuition has sky-rocketed in the last few years. I can only afford one class per semester. But with this job I have, as unpleasant and difficult as it is, I can afford to attend. If everything works out, if I put in maximal effort and get it all done, then I can leave Alaska in less than two years and have a career waiting for me. And maybe, something more.
Next up is my chums and my amazing coworkers. I’m actively looking to get out of my job and find something more appropriate for my personality. I’ve told my coworkers multiple times that when I tell them that I want to leave, I don’t want any of them taking it personally. And I mean it. My job is thankless and unimaginably difficult, but the people I work with are awesome. I’m currently sharing cubicle space with some of the most fun people I’ve been working around in a long time. There’s been ups and downs regarding who I sit around. At the start, I had this awesome gal who taught me so much about doing the job once I got out of training, and an old chum from my days in customer service who I was able to enjoy good conversation with. Then they left, and things got less fun again. But my current crew is really great and I will miss each and every one of them when I finally go, either when I find a new job, or when I leave the state in one year and nine months time.
Speaking of friends, there is one friend who has separate themselves from the rest. Just like every year. Ever since the two of us met, this person has brought so much into my life. I’ve had some amazing experiences through her. This summer, I got to attend a navy ceremony where her uniform was updated, and participate in putting the new insignia on her cover. Being a part of something so formal, it was amazing. Stuck with me the entire afternoon. For some, that’s just a part of their day, but because of my head injury, I cannot serve in the military. That was as close as I can get. Wouldn’t trade it for anything. But that wasn’t all. I got an invitation to the Navy Ball. An event that will stick with me for the rest of my life. At least, from where I am now. A very formal event, but I got to meet some serious movers and shakers from all branches of the service.
There are few friends who have stuck with me through my idiosyncrasies, and we have gone through a lot. Yet, we support one-another, and both of us have helped the other grow. It’s a friendship that has gone beyond what most people have in a lifetime, and I am positive that it has only just begun. Not being able to see her in person when I leave this state is going to be unbelievably hard.
Finally, as always, there is my parents. My relationship with my extended family runs the gamut of friendly to combative. But as is the case every year, my parents have been there for me and helped me all through my life. There have been some rough years, but then we got to the point that we are at now, where it is less parent and kid, and more people I know and am chummy with. Weirds all my coworkers out that I refer to my mother by her first name. Never has a day gone by where I take for granted how special they both are. As age is getting more and more a pressing issue, there has been discussion of a situation where we have to make hard decisions. I am the medical proxy in that situation, so it will be up to me. Not a fun thing to think about, but like any good son, I prepare for the worst, and enjoy the good moments as I find them, for as long as I can.
My 20’s are now behind me, and I am headed into a new part of my life. There is a potential of reigniting an old flame and seeing where this relationship can go. I’m not the same man I was then. I’ve learned and grown. Reading some of my old posts was cringe-y as fuck, but you learn from where you start out, and where you’re headed. I’m thankful for all the relationships I foster, and experiences I can have. Went on a mini vacation to another part of the state I haven’t been to in forever. It was a long trip, which turned out to be more fun than the destination. But this was more a test of what I can bring myself to do. Finding the courage to make the most of my life. Now at 31 years old, it’s too short not to.
Until next time, a quote,
“Understand that friends come and go, save for the precious few which you should hold on to.” – Baz Luhrmann